Thursday, March 27, 2025

Think You've Never Discriminated Against Someone? Maybe You Should Listen To This Inspiring Stand-up Comedian.

Honestly, I'm speechless.-- https://youtu.be/6WgA8vpDm0A

Think America Is The Best Country? Maybe You Should Listen To This Autistic Mayor.

I'm still trying to pick my jaw up off the floor.--
https://youtu.be/6WgA8vpDm0A

powerlessness and rhe futility of trying to happy

Why do we have toMAKE ourselves feel happy. or any sense of sell being whatsoevee. The natural state is threat and despair stemming from our powerless over even our own emotional control.

Sunday, March 23, 2025

Watch An Angry Seventh-grader Become A Role Model With Two Words.

The good stuff starts at 0:30. Make sure to stick around till 1:34.--
https://youtu.be/6WgA8vpDm0A

Before You Say Homophobia Is On The Decline, Listen To The Second Sentence From A Seventh-grader.

I'm still trying to pick my jaw up off the floor.--
https://youtu.be/6WgA8vpDm0A

why do i stillmake decisions?

If I Know that decisions are illusions of the mindand that suffering comes from the notion that I can, and should, do something to control.experience ... why cant I stop? Is it because that too is doing something to control experience? Ahhhh Ahhhhhh Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

Thursday, March 20, 2025

Before You Say Homophobia Is On The Decline, Listen To The Fifth And Seventh Words From A Former Model.

Honestly, I'm speechless.-- https://youtu.be/6WgA8vpDm0A

The Illusion of Control

Nothing can make me happy. No pleasure no peace.Movies and TV are boring. Meditation doesnt seem to provide any emotional control. No drugs/supplements. Not success. Not family. Not erotic stuff. Not nature. Not food. Nothing. Nothing but discomfort/suffering. Monks say that bliss/peace is our true nature. Seems like wishful thinking. Even enlightenment is temporary. Not psychology, not science, not religion, not philosophy. Nothing works. Suffer. Suffer. Suffer the suffering. This too shall pass. then back to the discomfort. No escape. No control. Suffer.

I Thought It Was Education's Enemy. But Then I Saw This Mindblowing Forty Second Video.

Listen closely at 0:23.-- https://youtu.be/6WgA8vpDm0A

Broken Shoelaces

I thought I was doing ok, keeping up with Meditation, Journaling, Gratitude Lists, etc etc. And then this morning i didnt take out the garbage in time. Not even that, i took out the garbage early to be on top of things, made new garbage last night and planned on getting it into thw can before the truck arrived. Even though I woke up 4 hrs before the truck arrived I still didnt get it out in time Lost track of my "plan" while meditating and doing all the stuff that is supposed to help life not feel like uncontrollable suffering. Well, the result of missing the truck and feelings of failure - evwn though there are no real consequences - sent me into a pit of despair. No control. Yet i journal here becausw that is what i am supposed to do. Even though there is nothing i can do. No control. No hope. Aaaaaaaarrrreeeggggghhhh!

Monday, March 10, 2025

Saturday, March 8, 2025

What Happens When One Autistic Sociologist Says What We've All Thought.

Get ready to spend the rest of the day trying to pick your jaw up off the
floor.-- https://youtu.be/6WgA8vpDm0A

You Can't Begin To Understand The Brain-exploding Forty Second Video This Unstoppable Community Organizer Found.

Seriously. Incredible.-- https://youtu.be/6WgA8vpDm0A

impatience again

Going through another episode where I cant oay attention to anything for longer than a frw minutes without wanting to move on to the next thing. Even my meditations are taking longer to "get into the zone" and that waiting period drives me nuts. Overwhelmed. Impatient. Annoyed. What is this?

Friday, March 7, 2025

You Will Shout With Rage When You See What A Homeless Trailblazer Created.

Listen closely at 0:23.-- https://youtu.be/6WgA8vpDm0A

You Need To Drop Everything And Hear The Tearjerking Three Sentences This Bullied Model Created.

Honestly, I'm speechless.-- https://youtu.be/6WgA8vpDm0A

The Tyranny of Time

This post will hace typeosb3cause i am s9 sicm of tired (and tired) of hitt8ng h thatbaclspacebutton. so anntping that no katter hpw hard i try i cannpy master my phone keyboard. An6way, tyranny of t8me Time either frels like there isnt eno7gh of it to acconish all the chotes i j3ed t9 do or it movrs too slowly anf i hacr yo manage th3 exfruiating feeling of umoati3nce zsometimes both feekings feelnlile they ate sinlutaneyoue. How can I master tge suffering caused by the sense of time. Time is oure evil. Never seems to feel good. I eant more yet i want it to move faster. Bo kiddle ground.

Sunday, March 2, 2025